Everyone asks why I am the way I am
Thoughts, actions, eyes and even words quiz
So ruffled yet very truly deeply calm
Sailing through turbulent tides
Yet arriving more intact than I was before setting sail
Through the ups and the downs
Filled with praise so much that my sorrows drown
As my joy earns a raise
Songs of victory adorn my lips
Even when the air reeks of defeat
Consistently birthing the kingdom within
Practically living ‘thy kingdom come’
Even in the face of the seeming endless wait
Confused, Worried and uncertain, such was my lot
Convinced, Calm and certain, a life I live so deeply
Justified beyond words, so much that the word ‘justified’ just doesn’t fit it out.
How else would you explain that ‘…all things work together for my good’?
How much adds up to the depth of my existence ‘…even before the foundations of the earth’?
Ever had questions so deep that only tears can express?
Tears of how much I see that you love me.
Love me, so very first even before I knew you existed.
For I am weary from carrying on without expressing this to you
Every now and then, within the pockets of my ‘busy’ day
Even in the face of my most obvious blessing
Here it is, precious Lord.
I say this from my heart to you.
I am deeply in love with you.
And this is how it all works together, adds up and starts to get expressed.
Irrespective of what the morrow brings, I so very deeply do.
For this is what I live for right now
Through the tears, the words, that song and this lifestyle.
Just to tell you how much I am in love with you.
